Redefining Beauty

Re-writing what it means to be beautiful.

I am reflecting on my path of what it means & feels like to be beautiful. All the many faces I have been with have allowed me to widen my gaze on what true beauty is.

I see beauty in all of these photos because I was being raw, real and authentic in who I was at the time & courageous with sharing where my heart was.

So, I share my reflections with you, in all the phases I have gone through…

I remember the moment in jr. high that a girl told me I would look much prettier if I’d put on some makeup.

I remember the days of preparing for school for 2 hours, curling my hair perfectly, making sure all my blemishes were covered and my mascara was just right.

I remember the first time I felt beautiful with no makeup, crying in the mirror.

I remember when I chose to stop shaving my body hair to see how people would treat me and if I could still love myself without any alterations of my wildness.

I remember looking at myself in the mirror afraid for my life, wondering if I would live another day.

I remember for months on end looking at my reflection, sobbing, as I didn’t recognize who I had become.

I remember seeing my child self for the first time with opened arms and allowance of who I’ve been.

I remember seeing myself for the first times in my life through my soul tribes eyes with amazement, wonder and magic.

I remember the moments of the divine masculine and feminine reflecting the purest love back to me, the moments that I know exactly who I am through another being.

As I look in the mirror today, the water wells up in my eyes for all the parts of myself I have fallen in love with. It is the most pure love I have ever felt in my life. And for that, I shall meet my reflection through divine Union in myself and the one who meets me at the altar of devotion day after day to bless the body that houses my soul, my essence, I am touched by who I truly am inside.

I look into my eyes with softness, I see the radiance of my soul. A pureness that cannot be tainted because it comes from within.

When you choose to meet yourself with more depth, you get to see a lifetime of love. For all the times you did not love yourself, you get to re-meet those versions with a compassionate heart.

You get to look in the mirror now, soften your gaze, open your heart, and say, “look at what I have become.”

To be a witness of who you have become, raw, unfiltered and a willingness in your heart to look a little deeper, you will see the true nature of what beauty is.